Pensamientos de madrugada

Pensando en ti. Con algo de culpa y remordimiento por el dolor que te he causado..
Mencionaste esta canción.
Y te cuidaste de mencionarla porque, según tu, es la que expresa lo que YO siento.
Y te mientes, y sabes que te mientes: expresa lo que hay en el fondo de tu corazón, todos los reproches que desearías hacerme. Y siento que es injusta, pero la acepto como una penitencia, como el pago por el dolor que te causo, El dolor que no creí causarte. El dolor que no quería causarte.
Y por que sé que en un futuro, por no haberme dado una oportunidad, me arrepentiré. Pero solo un poco

"O'Sailor" - Fiona Apple

Fiona Apple

O' sailor

I'm undecided about you again
Mightn't be right that you're not here
It's double-sided, cause I ruined it all
- But also saved myself, by never believing you, Dear
Everything good, I deem too good to be true
Everything else is just a bore
Everything I have to look forward to
Has a pretty painful and very imposing before
O' Sailor, why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
And then letting it go by the boards
O' Sailor, why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
And then letting it go by the boards
I have too been playing with fifty-two cards
- Just cause I play so far from my vest
Whatever I've got, I've got no reason to guard
What could I do, but spend my best
O' Sailor, why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
And then letting it go by the boards
O' Sailor, why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
And then letting it go by the boards
And after waiting, fighting patiently on my knees
All the other stuff tired itself out first, not me
And in its wake, appeared the touch and call
Of a different breed
One who set to get me wise, and got me there
And then, got me
And what a thing, to know what could be instead
Oh, what a blessed curse; to see
It took the agenda from its place in my bed
Made a merry paramour of me
O' Sailor, why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Saying there's nothing to it
And then letting it go by the boards
O' sailor, why'd you do it
What'd you do that for
Giving me eyes to view it
As it goes by the boards 


PD: Viendo mi portátil me di cuenta de un post it que escribí hace ya como dos semanas (suelo escribirme post it, sobre mis pensamientos y eso...) con una frase reveladora... ¿por qué lo escribí en ese momento? cuando restaure el SO de mi PC lo mostraré